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Am I enough ?
I found this poem in another Forum and it is published here with permission from the Author, Kath Howse
Am I enough?
Will I ever be enough
Can I be complete
Dresses, make up, surgery
To help me find my feet
A new dress, yes that’s the way
Designer style no less
A new bag and shoes
To go with it
To chase away my stress
I need my hair attended to
Should I choose pink
Or blue
I see the girls in the magazine
Tell me what to do
I know they know
My every need
And following their way
Will surely bring my every want
And happiness today
A splash of color across my lips
Fat deposits on my hips
Boobs too small, I want some more
In my head a civil war
Chasing the worlds ideal
Is this picture even real
Am I in love with my lust
Images in my mind, I’m not sure if I can trust
All I think of, all I need
From my chains at last to be freed
would I succeed with surgery
To be complete, as me
Or is it like a Trojan horse packed with a gift
Of a sense that I’m complete
Or will it be empty, hollow, void
A sense of bewildered defeat
Will I ever be enough
A woman in my mind
Or will there always be a doubt
An ideal I can’t find
No matter what dress I wear
Or how I do my hair
When will I ever be complete
After surgery down there?
I am enough as I am
No magazine ideal for me
I won’t stress if my hair is a mess
No make up for them to see
I look at me in the mirror
And smile because I’m me
A transgender woman
And I’ve been set free.(c) Kath Howse 2021
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2 Replies
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That poem captures so well the endless search we get sucked into seeking perfection.
I did particularly like the question…Am I in love with my lust?
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And from the same forum as above
The only passing I want to do is as a transfemale .
The idea of pretending to pass as a cis female is as dysphoric as pretending to be a cis male”Caroline agrees entirely.
