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Have you ever had a defining moment?
I had a moment the other day and it occurred to me that maybe some of you have had one too. Perhaps if you have you would like to share it with us.
The moment was a profound and real definition of self, totally out of the blue, not encouraged or staged in any way at all.
By not encouraged or staged I mean it was just the raw me, no make-up no feminine clothes wigs etc. The only thing remotely feminine about me at the time was my earrings. I had just gotten out of the shower, and was drying myself in front of the cabinet mirror. The only view I had of myself I might add was head and shoulders.
As I dried my face and looked at the mirror, a totally unexpected thing happened. The face looking back at me was mine of course, no ghosts or strange reflections, just my own face. But as I casually looked up at my reflection, the most extraordinary thing happened. The person looking back at me was, without any shadow of a doubt, Pamela.
It was uncanny as I have looked at myself many times before in the mirror, but never had the reflection so expressed my other persona of Pamela so profoundly. It was still my face, no doubt about it, but for some reason it appeared to be totally feminine. I have tried to understand this phenomenon but the only explanation is that I was looking at myself through my subconscious mind, and seeing the feminine features more clearly.
So has anyone else had a moment like this? Hugs Pamela!
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7 Replies
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yes yes and yes i did feel uncomfortable when i first saw it the first thing what came into my head can anyone else see that, but now i see the female look in my face quite a lot now in my eyes and this may sound strange its like its just under neath and it just shines through then its gone crazey may be but then iam blonde
salleyj -
How I envy you. My nearest equivalent needs the help of at least a wig but then the yes moment is fantastic.
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Hello Pamela,
Please, please tell me what you are taking I need some badly.
Seriously though I have had one of those moments when looking at a picture I had taken of myself. (Gods gift to the CD/TS world must be the digital camera) All I could see was my sister.
In male mode I don’t think I look anything like her but in this picture all I could see was my sister. The resemblance was uncanny and as Carol says above I do need the assistance of a wig…
Cheers
Pamela
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Sorry no drugs just a strange and wonderful moment in my life.
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Had several moments and not those kind I know what you thought lol so did I as I typed. First and most profound was the self realization that the transgender tag was me. That lead to an inner peace that as my wife said gave me back my sparkle in my eyes, she didn’t know what gave it back she just told me it was !
The next was a picture the first time I saw feminine me without a doubt , , first time I was ever comfortable with a picture of me. Of course that lead to a lot more pictures then one lazy day with only a little bit of makeup but still with my favorite wig, a picture actually captured Kristyana, I knew at that moment I was a reality.
The last moment was when I had a trade license picture last year. A little bit of makeup, real little , natural hair and a smile. When I received the license I was chuffed with the picture. The moment came when I put in my purse! Below it is a 2010 driving license when I put the new trade license above it was obvious that the old me was gone. A different person now existing on the outside as well as the inside. Me , , truly me and no pretending. -
yea not the same as yours i was 17 sitting on my bed looking into the mirror then it hit me i should stay like this for the rest of my life a peace came over me i felt so good deep inside like it was just right
then followed by pannic
well thats mine
salleyj -
mine was realy sureal, i love looking at woman in public, but one day i realised that i was not looking at them in asexual way but admireing them. What i mean by that is i was looking at there clothing and shoes and seeing how those would look on me. and now i have an inner peace about who i am and where i am going
