[Catherine]

Hi Sarah,

Hope you are feeling well throughout this ordeal. Is your GP fully conversant with TG matters?

If your still struggling with medications, it may make a difference if you were to seek an Endronilogist who understands these matters, in better detail.

Hope it works out for you. Be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

[Catherine]

Hi Everyone,

Just weighing back in on the topic. It’s not until you reach the level of conciousness that Jannine has reached, that you feel the ‘tumblers’ falling into place.

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Why had she made such a huge impression on me?? My thoughts turned to the obvious answer, given the private being inside of me….. the other me. I wanted to BE her, I wanted to BE like her, I wanted to DRESS like her, I wanted to see her in MY mirror at home, I wanted to smell like her and wear her beautiful shapely clothing. What a dream for me to aspire to, one that will live in me until I can reach that goal.

And Jannine, you’ll get that goal before long. It’s in your heart. You can do it.

Unlike many of you, I’ve been at the other end of the spectrum. I’ve been the 90% woman 10% man. And hasn’t that been such a hard slog!!! Every decision a man, husband, father, has to make, has been just so laborious. Constantly couched in the terms of “What would a man do in such circumstances?”

I too never subscribed to the, “Living in the wrong body” scenario. For me it has been; OMG!!! I’ve had a prolapse at birth. My ‘inners’ have become ‘outers’, quick get them back in. After all, that’s what GCS does. It puts them back in, if you go for the inversion technique.

And it doesn’t stop there. Even before HRT (one month and counting away) there is the very distinct psychological marker of , Where is Mr. Right? (He’s out there – He just doesn’t know it yet). The only compromise I have to make, as I’m not truely intersex, I’m happy to adopt.

So in order to answer the original thread question, “Are you crossdressing or seriously wanting to be a woman?” I’ll take option 2 please, seriously wanting to be the woman I am. No chips with that, on the express queue thank you. Bring on HRT and GCS ASAP. It’s been a long show in the making.

Appreciate your listening.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine

[Catherine]

Tess,
It’s been a few months since you posted this thread. I was wondering how you are coping. We are still all here for you. I’ve only recently joined TgR but am on an identical journey.
Trust you are safe, well and happy.
Lotsa luv
Catherine

[Catherine]

Christina and Clare have both made very realistic comments about our community, and the need for us, individually, to search out; who we really are.
I for one, would be in a completely different place today, if I hadn’t been railroaded in my earlier years by the grossly inapt, misleading, perverse and bigotted labelling that pervaded our community, and to some degree, lingers today.
If the correct information about my womanhood was available, I would be a far more effective and contributing citizen to our entire society.
And the evidence continues to flood in each day. The ABC Stateline ACT programme indicated the Canberra group are receiving 100’s of calls from people absolutely sick and tired of living in denial for 40, 50, 60 and even longer years. As they said,”And this is only the tip of the ice berg”.
Well Canberra is not an isolated case, NSW Gender Centre is being inundated with similar requests for support and information.
It’s time we all ‘got real’ and looked at ourselves in the naked light of ‘who am I – really’. Smash down the walls of denial and start living the life of who you were destined to be. Don’t live a life of abject misery attempting to fulfill the expectations of everyone you know. Disappoint them now and get it over and done with.
Just look at the breathe of fresh air moving through the US, where parents in urban and rural communities are actively supporting the gender correction of their siblings. WOW!! Try that 30 years ago, and you would have been thrown out of home, like I was. So much for unconditional parental love.
Time for us to make a stand. Just remember, womanhood or manhood (whichever side you are) starts from within. It then radiates out exponentially allowing each and every individual to reach their desired goal – if they so desire – Embrace it, Enjoy it, It’s – YOU –

Be safe, well and happy
Catherine

[Catherine]

Dear Pamela,

The answer is quite obvious. ……….. You are …… human. You have …..feelings. Respect them …….. honour them……….. It’s YOU. ……..Nobody else. Irrespective of how you present, …… physically. Just look at our para olympians. Some of their body parts don’t work or aren’t there. Does that worry them? Certainly not !!!

Quite an amazing topic to try and put a lid on. Or catagorise. After many years of searching why we do , what we do, I think it comes down to the point that black is black, white is white; and gray is gray. And how many shades are there in grey? Do we really need to label ourselves in this way, as to whether we are gay straight or other?

The way we are all predispostioned by way of genetics, hormonal, environmental constraints, and chromonsonal signatures, even down to the molecular level, as intersex research is driving, does it really matter?

Should we be focusing on our own individual unique journey and embracing it as the real centre structure of our being? Releasing us to be who we really are, and not putting ourselves down because we may be …….. gay …..straight ……. bi ….whatever? If I love someone, I love them for who they are, not what they are.

I know I’ve been unique since the age of 5. I believe I am predestined to be a women, regrettably some of my body parts forgot, and physically I present as male; in some parts; yet still with a big bum and hips. In exploring this value I’ve learnt to love women for what they can teach me in being a woman, and I love men, as I believe one of my purposes is to satisfy a man. I have done this, yet I don’t believe I have ever satisfied a woman.
What shade of gray does this make me?
Thank you, I appreciate and respect all of you.
Love
Catherine

[Catherine]

What more can I say??? Felicity-Lane, Bethany and April, have said it all, and so succintly.

Someone sent me an email some time ago, wanting to more about my alter-ego. i.e. the Catherine side of me. After checking the dictionary for the correct interperation of the word, I had to tell them about Paul; the little bit of maleness, Catherine exhibits.

Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine

[Catherine]

WOW!
After 6 years it is more than evident on what a continuum we live in. I think it is a celebration for us all to look at and embrace whatever part of that continuum we are in.

For myself, I was fortunate enough to realise at the age of 5, I was a girl. I’ll thank Gail, my next door neighbour, for being the catalyst of that realisation.

As Christine said earlier, she has had no doubt what so ever that she is woman. My brain wiring has always shared that same perspective. I was distracted in my young adulthood by these unnecessary medical boxes (TG, TS etc, etc) as they only serve to placate the medical fraternaity so they can be satisfied in trying to apply the correct medication in order to “cure” us. I believe that denial is a shocking place to live. (been there) and its not until we brush all the external noise (classifications, media etc) away and tune into our inner most thoughts and feelings that the real you is brought into perspective. How we deal with this realisations is yet another matter. I’ve always been a woman, its just some of my body parts forgot to do the right thing.

I read an interseting article just recently that takes us to an all new level, of molecular biology, in understanding who we are.

I found an interesting link from Dr. Eric Vilain, MD, PhD. Vilain is an assistant professor of Human Genetics at UCLA looks into some of the possible reasons as to, “Why we are”.

http://www.learner.org/courses/bi…/units/gender/experts/vilain.html

In summary there appears to be 5 major factors (to date; watch this space for more in the future) (Sounds like a Spielberg movie) that drive us along our journey. Genes, chromosomes, hormones, genetics and environmental influences in varying quantities, levels, strengths, dominance and interactions provide medical science adequate permutations to respectably resemble the factors that influence any commercial air craft accident.
A whole new ball game is happening down at a molecular level. With new genes DAX1, SRY and WNT4, sounding more like PC operating systems than the basic building blocks of our existence. Where male genitalia can occur in supposedly genuine XX chromosomes (female) and sufficient X chromosomes at a molecular level can be found in the Y chromosome (male) to produce functioning female genitalia and other forms of feminisation.
These molecular levels are so small they are only visible under an electron microscope; normal micro scopes cannot see them
And the good news is, this is still, only the tip of the proverbial iceberg. So, sit back, relax, and do what you have to do, but most of all, enjoy the journey. It’s unique
Thanks for listening.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine